Why should I ???

Very sianz now..I hate this feeling....why should I be the one to sacrified or to step backward for others??? Do I need to take this obligation which actually I dun think I should??

Is it worth that I always be the one to take a step back? If I did, my friend happy but I dun really feel comfortable.....but if I reject his request, feel that he might really angry or bu shuang....so I am hanging at the middle...do I need to sacrified again??? Sianz...

Dun like people always did not conduct as thier promise....especially I am keep repeat while feel that he just take it as a whisper on his ear at that moment only...then do nothing changes....feel very sianz for this....and sad...and dissapointed...coz feel like I am like nothing in his heart...

Just dun like people always take it as granted then they yet to deny it....but I really feel like that....not I want to be calculative....but I need some respect while people will do whatever they promise to me....even we are friend...but I do mind this basic respect....

Why people can angry me but I seen like lost the authority to throw out my temper which I am keep trying to avoid??? Really feel sianz....why friend cannot understand me? Even I think we are good friend already....so sad...

Can I expect my friend sacrified for me as well?? I really no idea for the answer...so poor I am...